intimacy is costly!
before I got to training camp, i told the Lord that I didn’t just want the next thing, i wanted the pure thing.
Arriving at base camp, you realize what you just gave up: friends, comfort, false identities you use to cope. When all that stuff is gone, you see parts of your heart that you’ve never seen before. And only then, sitting in full surrender, do you come to the end of your self and the arms of the Father.
this week Jesus showed me that there was so many ways that my heart was not walking in freedom. Freedom to be unoffendable, emotionally okay when things don’t go my way, freedom from meaninglessness and self dependence, and fear of man.
But then my heart was met with this simple truth: I’m Gods kid! Kids don’t care what people think of them. Kids aren’t afraid to run to their parents arms when they mess up or when they are afraid. Kids ask and beg their parents for whatever they want. And kids just live their life, playing, knowing their parents have the rest taken care of! Kids don’t strive to be kids!
I was literally born to be loved by God (and so were you!)
when you believe this (like actually believe this) it changes everything)
Believing this gives me the power to filter out the lies that i believe about my self with what my father says is true about me.
I having nothing to prove.
there’s nothing to earn.
I have it all.
nothing else matters.
friends, if you haven’t felt His love, get ready, cause here comes the downpour.
I am so wrecked.
God called you on this mission for a reason! Keep making a difference, I’m so proud of you and I’m there with you in spirit! God’s with you every step of the way!