I’ll always find Him faithful

When I don’t know anything else, one thing I’m sure of, is God will always be found faithful!

One month ago, I left to go to Guatemala for missions. Had no idea where I’d be living, who I’d be living with, or what I’d be doing.

And here are the prayers I had prayed (go read my second blog!):

From the day I stepped into training camp until the day I arrived back in the states, I could’ve never predicted or prepared for what God was going to do:

My little team got placed on the top of a mountain…in the middle of nowhere.

Hiked countless hours (up said mountain) to get to town and host a prayer room.

Cooked and prayed and shared life with each other (and a little mouse friend we named Fernando – rip).

Gave vaccines to pets in a village.

Served in the trenches (like actually… we dug trenches).

And tried our best to make our mountain a home and serve the people of Guatemala.

God answered every prayer: 

1. When all your comfort is stripped away, it’s so easy to let your frustrations out on other people, and drive you away from them. But our team fought for unity, for vulnerability, and for each other. And we came out a family.

2. From the start, it was clear that our team was full of bold people, and I think thats why God gave us the ministry that we had. We could’ve stopped serving because it looked like we weren’t making a difference. But we leaned in. And instead of being afraid, we said yes to whatever God had for us everyday, and God blessed that.

3. NOTHING. WENT. AS. PLANNED. AND. HE. USED. IT. ALL. Silly me for thinking I was in control. Thanks Jesus, because your plans are way better and way more fun anyways.

4. When you build close friendships, you see God moving so clearly in their lives, and that itself is ministry.

5. There is no barrier, not even language, that can stop the presence of God from changing people’s lives.

So, at the end of one of the hardests months of my life, it was still hard to say goodbye to it. Why?

Because ministry is hard and heartbreaking and draining.

It leads you to fall in love with people, with places, with parts of creation that you can’t get enough of, you always want more. And that’s because it’s all Him. The people are Him. The places are Him. The details are Him. And a life of missions is a life of heartbreak because He calls me to go, and go again, and go again.

What was it all for? What’s next? There’s a lot of question I have now, and so much I don’t know. But that’s okay because there’s only one thing I need to know:

I’ll always find Him faithful.

(got you)